Bear With Me If These Words, They Falter...

They say there's a first time for everything, and well, this is quite possibly one of those times. I hope that this has the effect I intended...

A Little While

If ever there was something special,
That made me want to write a song,
I would say it's you and me, girl,
Though I know I've done you wrong.

'Cause I know that I'm not perfect,
I know I'm not without my flaws,
I try to be the best man I can,
And honey, I want to be yours.

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you,
I'm sorry I forget to say,
Just how much I really love you,
And how much I wish you'd stay.

I'm not too sure how I can show you,
Show you what you mean to me,
How I wish I could convince you,
This isn't how it has to be.

I'm sorry if I ever failed you,
I try to improve the way I am,
And if you feel that you can let me,
I'll show you I'm a lucky man.

So now I'm sat here by myself, dear,
I know that I've made you cry,
And while these words, they may be sad,
I don't want this to be goodbye.

There may be times when I'll annoy you,
Or maybe I'll have made you sad,
But Lord knows I'm trying to show you,
You're the best thing I ever had.

My love, you know I'm sorry for this,
I just want to see you smile,
And if we try we'll make it through this,
It just might take a little while...

I'm aware that people who do this kinda thing for a living probably spend a fair bit more time writing than I have, but when I sat down and thought for a bit this is what I ended up with. It might not be brilliant, but I thought it was appropriate for conveying how I feel. I also intended it to be more of a song than a poem, but since I'm not particularly skilled at either it's kinda a bish-bosh of both...

A Brief Respite...

Ah, such glorious weather outside and I'm sat indoors on my laptop. Such is the life of a hay fever sufferer who forgot the anti-histamines. Fantastic.

So, today marks the 2 down 3 to go stage of the exam period. There's 2 more sneaking up on Monday and Wednesday and I'm really not ready for the exam on Monday. To be honest, special relativity wouldn't be too bad if I'd gone to the lecture and done more work, but atomic spectra (read: applied quantum mech) is gonna be a right pain in my arse. Still, that should be the only exam this time round that I'll fail. I've gotten used to seeing the wonderful message on my results saying "You have failed the year." It doesn't bother me that much any more, there's always the August resits.

Well, aside from the inevitable continuous bitching about my exams there's not really much else to report on. I've gotten somewhat addicted to a Facebook app called MouseHunt, and if you haven't already tried it I do recommend that you give it a go. It's rather good fun, being one of those "check it every so often" games rather than one that requires constant attention. Who'd have thought that trapping virtual mice could be so much fun?

In other news, I've gotten back into the habit of playing guitar occasionally and have decided to try and learn Any Way You Want It by Journey. It's quality old school rock, and not that tricky to play as far as I can see. Awesome.

Well, I'll wrap it up there. Laters.

A Productive Endeavour

Ah, the familiar feel of "blogging" is back. Mmm. Y'know, this is the third blog I've ever owned; my first being on MSN Spaces, way back when they first launched it. I even went as far as making a few friends through that thing, and I still have a few of them. My second was one that came with the joy of a MySpace account, after I bowed to pressure from friends and actually got one of the darn things. I never really thought MySpace was that fantastic, but then I never really got into the whole friend whoring emo thing. I don't really care how many people you want to claim to be friends with, I'll stick with people I actually know.

Hence, what with my other half going and getting one of these last night and thus reminding me of the fact I still have access to both an MSN Spaces account as well as a MySpace I went dredging through the annals of history and turned up my MySpace blog. I didn't remember, at the time, why I'd left it dormant rather than deleting it all together until I actually read the blog entries on it. Man, I was a fool back in 2006. Reading some of the things I wrote, some of the things I clearly felt strongly on, it just serves to prove how far I've come as a human being in the past few years. I'm not quite the same angry, socially inept teenager I was when I first ventured forth to university - I've grown up a lot, I think, and I think that I've bettered myself in a few ways. I'm still nowhere near perfect, but I don't think I'm quite as flawed as I was.

Anyway, that's a very brief history lesson for those of you who've stumbled upon this glorious example of why the Internet is fantastic. Yes, there's a lot of rubbish on the interweb, and a lot of it is put there by your average joe just like me, but perhaps one or two of you might find something interesting to read here or perhaps learn something. I doubt the latter will occur, at least not frequently, but we'll see.

So, why am I making a blog with the "Gods" of Google via Blogger? Well, that's a good question. Part of it is that I actually quite like blogging, I do rather enjoy the challenge of trying to order what's in my head. Most of the time, I don't think I manage it very well when I try and achieve this verbally. I don't think I'm particularly well suited to conversation, since it requires the ability to think through what you're saying as you say it and not make any hideous gaffes that alienate you from your peers. With the written word, however, you have more time and less pressure on you - time to sort out what you want to say at your own pace, in whichever manner you deem most appropriate. That said, conversation is also two-way and relies on you understanding - at least partially - the person you're talking to. As well as the fact that I do enjoy writing things down, I chose Blogger since I already have a Google Mail account. Saves me some time, no? Oh, and if you're wondering why or offended by the fact that I've referred to Google as "gods" - it's quite simply because Google satisfies a few of the requirements us mortals place upon our deities. They must be all-knowing, and omnipresent. Google knows far more than I do, and it's in a hell of a lot more places at once than I am, so I'll settle for accepting it as meeting those two requirments. All hail the Church of Google! Could be worse, I suppose... *cough* Scientology *cough*

I don't think I aimed to put anything useful into this entry at the start, so I've not really deviated from my objective - which was simply to allow a brief respite from revision of notes on solid state physics. I have an exam on it tomorrow, y'see, and I don't think it's going to go well. Admittedly, I do now know the equations for Debye temperature and Fermi energies, but there's a lot more in the course that I don't know. I'm looking forward to Saturday's exam, though, which is on optics. It's just simple geometry coupled with electromagnetic theory on diffraction and interference. Sure, I've never had to derive the equations for these things from first principles before, but I'm perfectly capable of drawing some diagrams and doing simple algebra to determine angles and lengths. Easy.

That's all for now, as I've spent the best part of twenty minutes procrastinating on here now. I'll drop by again soon, no doubt, with more equally pointless ramblings from my head. Perhaps now you realise why I chose the name I did, partially because these things are somewhat chaotic and I quite liked the fact that early physics theories for electromagnetism were concerned with the existance (or, eventually, lack of) an aether. Huzzah!